‘Socha zaroor, par hua nahi’ – Mohammed Shami recalls suicidal thoughts

Indian pacer Mohammed Shami recently admitted that he considered ending his life during his difficult times, but he overcame them by reminding himself of how much the game of cricket had given him.

In July 2025, the Calcutta High Court ordered Shami to pay INR 4 lakh in total monthly support to his estranged wife, Hasin Jahan, and their kid. Jahan was due to receive INR 1.5 lakh per month, while their daughter was entitled to INR 2.5 lakh. Jahan, a former model, married Shami in 2014, and they welcomed a daughter in 2015. They split in 2018 after Jahan accused Shami of domestic violence.

“Socha zaroor, par hua nahin, yeh shukr hai varna World Cup miss ho jata mere se, kyunki jab wo thought aaya tha mere dimaag mein ki yeh time hai life ke end ka, jis cheez ke liye mujhe itna naam diya, jis cheez ke liye media mere pichhe hai, usko chhod ke is jump ke chakkar mein…Woh thought, woh pyaar yaad aayin. Socha chalo isko chhodo, chalo game me lagte hain phir,” Shami said in the episode Aap Ki Adalat with Rajat Sharma.

(The thought came to my mind, but it did not happen. Thank God, otherwise I’d have missed the World Cup. The thought came to my mind to end my life, but then I decided, this game, which gave me so much name, why should I jump (to death), forgetting all these things. I thought of love and affection. Then I decided, forget this and focus on my game)

Mohammed Shami was asked about the abusive comments directed at him on social media following allegations of domestic violence.

He admitted that he was scared by the things being said about him online. In 2018, Jahan filed a petition in the Alipore Court, accusing Shami and his family of harassment. She demanded INR 7 lakh per month from the Bengal cricketer to cover the family’s maintenance expenses.

“Bad things are spoken about, but nowadays those things are spoken about which do not exist. I am most scared of that. Yesterday, I was looking at a photograph, and I didn’t know when I had taken it. The number of allegations that have been levelled against me in the last 6-7 years, maybe even a terrorist would not have been levelled so many allegations. I cannot do anything about this,” Shami said.